"Then…"
"I don’t have any time, Hua’er."
Nan Hua’s eyes flickered as she dashed towards Chen Yuan, ignoring the thick smoke around them. At this moment, she had no time to care about it as she grabbed Chen Yuan’s wrist, checking her pulse.
Chen Yuan knew that Nan Hua was getting close, but she didn’t move. Her other hand took out a bamboo tube and handed it over to Nan Hua.
"When you’re ready, you can open it."
Nan Hua grabbed the bamboo tube and then looked at Chen Yuan with a complicated look. She knew very well that Chen Yuan had the same ailment as Old Madam Long… she had cancer in her body. And by this point, it had spread to her entire body.
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Even walking should have been difficult for Chen Yuan right now.
"I’m tired, Hua’er. Lying to myself, believing that I can atone what I had done. Living a life in this darkness full of deception, knowing that there’s no miracle."
"Junior Sister Luo can heal you."
"At what cost?" Chen Yuan sneered. "As herself, Junior Sister Luo is a kindhearted girl. But those around her would never allow her to treat other people without making sure that she can benefit from it. Junior Brother Kuang had come to me, but I don’t want to work under other people. I don’t want to bow down my head and become another tool just for someone else to use."
Nan Hua was silent.
*cough* *cough* *cough*
"You need to…"
"No." Chen Yuan stood firm in her place. Her immunity was actually not as good as Nan Hua towards this poison. However, she had been standing firm in this place all this time in order to buy time for herself and to make sure that she would be able to last.
When she decided to kill everyone involved in her brother’s death, she had already planned to kill all the soldiers in Han Yuan City. That way, she would be able to make sure that everyone who had a hand in her brother’s death would die.
It was the reason why she picked this place in the first place.
She’s a doctor.
She knew her body more than anyone else.
Even if she survived from this massacre today, Zhang Xu Kingdom would never want to let her go because of what she had done. She would have to live her entire life running away because a lot of people would be after her head.
The army of Zhang Xu Kingdoms.
The relatives of each of these soldiers.
Just like her wanting revenge, she knew that these people would be the same.
With her current body’s condition, Chen Yuan knew very well that she would never be able run away far before her body started failing. She only had a few days to live at most because she had refused her junior brother’s offer.
Her mind faintly recalled her Master’s words.
"I don’t care what your aspiration be as long as you can continue to treat people around you. That’s more than enough."
’I’m not qualified to be a doctor.’
Chen Yuan knew better than anyone else that she was never fully qualified to be a good doctor. She was someone who cared more about herself than other people. If the person who was wounded beside her was her enemies, she would rather watch him suffer than help him.
She could never be the person her Master expected her to be.
This ending was much better for her.
There wouldn’t be any other suffering, won’t be any other days inside the darkness, and she had finished whatever she wanted to do before her death.
It’s good enough.
Chen Yuan couldn’t ask for more.
"This is my decision, don’t try to stop me, Junior Sister Hua." Chen Yuan could feel her body felt heavier. With her organs were already failing, the poison only made it faster for her to die, shortening her suffering. Leaning towards Nan Hua, Chen Yuan took a deep breath as her body slowly lost the strength.
Yet, she didn’t feel afraid and only feel peaceful.
She no longer had any regrets left.
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Even if there were things that she wished to change should she had the chance, those were nothing more than unrealistic thoughts. All that could be done was already finished.
"Senior Sister Chen?" Nan Hua called, her hand was holding Chen Yuan’s hand as she could feel the other party’s body slowly turned cold.
Chen Yuan no longer had any strength to answer. All that she could remember was the song that she had once played. Back when she was still in Fei Yang Kingdom, she had been wondering what kind of song she would play in the end.
Would she still live for a long time and survive?
Would she meet her enemies first?
But in the end, it seemed that she was the one who gave up on herself. She didn’t want to be used by other people and prolonging her life was the same as prolonging her suffering.
’Chen Yuan, let’s go and play!’
The voice of her half brother calling her to play resounded within Chen Yuan’s mind. She showed a faint smile.
More than anything, she just wanted to return to the past.
To the time where she still hadn’t experienced any bitterness and didn’t understand the cruel truth of Chen Family. Back then, all that she knew was that whenever she finished her studying task, she would be able to play with her older half brother.
They didn’t share the same mother.
But the two of them were very close to each other.
Thud!
Nan Hua’s body felt cold. She looked at Chen Yuan and knew very well that her senior sister had already breathed her last. Her small hand trembled a bit as she hugged Chen Yuan tightly.
Her mind was churning.
This is not supposed to be Chen Yuan’s end.
No matter how much Nan Hua wanted to change the course of her future, she never wanted Chen Yuan’s death.
And in the original story, Chen Yuan accepted Kuang Sheng’s offer. The novel never stated what illness Chen Yuan had, but it was said that because it was already so bad, Luo Qing Wei couldn’t fully cure her either. All that she could do was to prolong her life for a few more years.
As for her eyes, Luo Qing Wei was capable of performing the operation to cure Chen Yuan’s eyes. After more than a decade living as a blind person, Chen Yuan was able to live as a normal person once again.
And with her ability in the inheritance technique and many other medical abilities, she was supposed to be Luo Qing Wei’s helper.
In the original story, she was the loyal assistant of Luo Qing Wei, helping the other braving through many adversities. She and Kuang Shen were both her seniors who were willing to help her do many things.
The interaction between Luo Qing Wei and Chen Yuan was very few.
But it was said that the two of them had harmonious relationship and that the lovable Luo Qing Wei was capable of seducing both women and men. A lot of people looked at her in favorable light because of her kindness and lovable personality.
That included Chen Yuan.
She should have been able to stay alive for a few more years.
But because Nan Hua had somehow changed the storyline, she realized that she had changed Chen Yuan’s future. In her interaction with Chen Yuan, she had somehow changed the future course of event.
Nan Hua’s expression turned cold and rigid.
She lowered her eyes and looked at Chen Yuan, who was smiling before her death. It was clear that this was the end that Chen Yuan had wanted.
Then why is it different with the story she had read?
Just why…?
Everything seemed to be so different than what she had previously read. Even though it was written through Long Qian Xing’s perspective, why is that everything end up so different when she experienced it herself?
Thunk!
Nan Hua looked at the distance as the smoke receding. Looking at the entire city’s wall that was engulfed in faint mist and countless soldiers falling to the ground, Nan Hua knew very well that this would be the end of Han Yuan City.
The city that was not supposed to fall was now in Fei Yang Kingdom’s hand.
Everything had turned differently from the novel.
Things she wanted to change ended up the same and things she didn’t want to change ended up changing.
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